Dear Mom, today you would have been 62. It breaks my heart to not be able to call you this year and have Hayden sing Happy Birthday to you over the phone! Last year on your birthday at this time, Hayden and I were getting ready to come over to your house to spend the day with you. We laughed and chatted while you finished getting ready, and Miss Stella White was there with us too. Hayden gave
you the birthday cards she had made you, and you enjoyed you firstborn granchild for the last time on your birthday. We then took you shopping for the Ipad you were determined to get and learn how to use. We got your Ipad, your signature purple case, and as we were picking them out, Miss Stella had an emergency, and had to go. Ben came to the rescue, and picked us all up, and took us to the Olive Garden, where we met Dad after he got off work. Andy and Stacy, who was pregnant with Mason, at the time, joined us for what would be our last family dinner all together. We ate, and you opened your presents, and posed for pictures. After you had gotten in the car, Hayden wanted to snuggle, so she sat on your lap for more hugs and kisses. I am so very glad that I took those pictures of you kissing her, and those last family pictures. Those and all my precious and memories are all I have left of you now. I know you will always be with me, and all around me. I see the sunsets, the rainbows, and everyday little things that make me think of you. It's just not the same, and never will be again mom. I miss your sweet smile, your infectious laughter, your ornry sense of humor, being able to talk to you, visit you, hug you, and kiss you. I miss your voice and the way you smell. I miss your kind and generous spirit. Today on your birthday, I miss you. So much it hurts. I know your having a grand old time up in heaven, but we all, Nana, Daddy, Hayden and I, miss you so down here. It's been ten and a half months, and this is the last milestone of the first year without you. I have kept my promises to you, and I am taking care of things down here! I miss you like crazy and love you forever! Happy 62nd birthday Mommy!
